Saturday, August 9, 2008

Lyrics that make me think...

I took my love, I took it down
Climbed a mountain and I turned around
I saw my reflection in the snow covered hills
till the landslide brought me down

Oh, mirror in the sky
What is love
Can the child within my heart rise above
Can I sail thru the changing ocean tides
Can I handle the seasons of my life

Well, Ive been afraid of changing
cause Ive built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Children get older
Im getting older too

Oh, take my love, take it down
Climb a mountain and turn around
If you see my reflection in the snow covered hills
Well the landslide will bring it down

If you see my reflection in the snow covered hills
Well maybe the landslide will bring it down


D'Arcy said...

Can I handle the seasons of my life?


Can I handle the season of my life?

More importantly, can I handle sharing the next season of my life with someone else? Can I handle putting trust in someone else for things that I have solely been the proprietor of?

I've always been alone, and I've always made a success at what I want to do...and I have FEARED, yes, FEARED taking that step of giving any part of myself to another person, of committing to someone else.

I don't know if these are any thoughts that are coherent, but, can I handle the seasons of my life? Because I feel it is time for me to get the courage to enter a new season, to see what the heat of summer can bring me as I finally feel ready to leave spring. Will summer give me a glow, or will it burn?

I don't know.

Rowena said...

Sugar, I like reading the lyrics, my favorite was

Can the child within my heart rise above
Can I sail thru the changing ocean tides
Can I handle the seasons of my life

especially since I feel like I have really been learning to "ride the wave" of my life and the seasons, too.

But I'd like to talk to D'arcy's comment too, because I totally get it. I think the thing about opening your heart to the possibility of being hurt or being left or being betrayed (or whatever the fear is) is not about protecting yourself from harm, but rather is about finding the faith that you yourself are strong enough to make it through even if you are hurt by that most loved one.

I get you D'arcy. Do you get me?

Trust in yourself to make it through the seasons, including the pain that always comes with opening your heart. I think that in order to love and be happy, you have to be willing to lose it and be sad.

Sugar said...

Thanks for your thoughtful comments, Ladies. You get it.

The hard part is finding your strength and magnificence and light... and still staying...

I'm right there... right now... wondering where he fits now that I don't need crutches. He's not always the soft kind of crutches. Sometimes, a lot of the time, he's the ill fitting kind that may help you walk... but cause aches every where else.

We are still living apart. I have really appreciated this time to heal and reflect. I'm going to keep it in neutral for a little longer... I'll know when it's time. I have faith in myself.

aaahhhh... every time I hear those lyrics, I stop cold. I have a picture in my mind that I am trying to sketch out...

D'Arcy said...

I get you girl.

In fact, you read my mind. This week I thought to myself...ok, what is the worst that could happen? You get a divorce, you get hurt, you get....fill in the blank. Then I said to myself...are you a person who would wallow and die in that situation?

Hell no.

Sugar You are an AMAZING example of the strength one woman can yield and wield.

So, last night, sitting upon my couch and evaluating my thoughts, I talked to my fear. I told my fear that it was time that we part. It was time for us to let go of each other. It was time to not rely on each other or make excuses for one another. It was time to let fear move on. I patted fear on the back, and sent fear on its way.

Fear might try and come knock on my door, it might do this repeatedly....but I am TIRED of letting fear figure into the important equations of my life.

Thank you girls!

D'Arcy said...

However, if fear comes back and bites me on the ass...and I get crushed in life...I am counting on BOTH of you to be there for me!!


Ann said...

I love this song. Can I handle the seasons of my life? Till the landslide brought me down....

I hope you beat the landslide to the punch, and it sounds like you did. Sounds more like you're trying to sail through the changing ocean tides. I hope you figure it out with him. I can't imagine how difficult it must be for you.

On a WHOLE other note, good luck with the cake. :)

smiles4u said...

I love that song by Fleetwood Mac! The words have always spoken to me.
Living in nuetral or standing still and letting things just "be" for the moment while you figure things out is very wise but I know how hard that can be at times to do.
While were in "waiting" it can feel like we are doing nothing, it can feel out of control because we aren't actively doing "something".

The thing to keep in mind is that this is a season and seasons change...waiting for changes...handling what comes with the new season. Whatever it may be, you will get through it because life has prepared you for it even if you don't know it yet. You have so much inside much wisdom and knowledge and don't forget about your feelings...they too will speak to you...sometimes we don't want to listen because deep down we "know" what it then comes "accepting" what "is" and most important is being true to yourself. Being true to yourself in all your relationships...not just letting things happen "to" you.

Living an authentic life requires us to be real and honest and feeling the raw emotions. You are a brave are a woman of courage because your living true to yourself...your taking down the walls, your not pretending to be what your not. I think you are wise in taking this time to figure out things before taking the next step in your life.

Thank you so much for your beautiful comment on my post. Just reading that allowed me to understand and "know" you a little bit more and ya know I admire you even more than I did before. You my dear friend are wise beyond your years!

ophelia rising said...

This song is near and dear to me, as it's one of the very first songs I learned on guitar. I used to play and sing it with a friend, whom I used to do acoustic gigs with here and there. It's followed me all these years, and I have many memories associated with it.

The lyrics are wonderful, and they can mean so many things. I always took them as a sort of stand from insecurity to independence and courage. Also, I think that, in a sense, the lyrics speak to how our trials, or landslides, in our life can only lift us higher. That, without the pain and fear, we only stand still.

Fear is a tough cookie to crack, but it is only a small part of ourselves, so it's not as insurmountable as it seems. At least, in the most ideal situation, fear is insurmountable. But life doesn't always deal out ideal situations, does it? Still, I think fear can be overcome by just leaping in and facing it. Scary? Yes. But often worth it.

Rowena said...

Deal, D'arcy. You know that's the thing about getting older... Sugar and I aren't old enough to really know everything (how old do you have to be for that?) but I think we have lived enough life to deal without panic, mostly, usually. One of the benefits of being in your thirties. At least I have, what about you Sugar?

Sugar said...

I agree about living without panic. It did seem to happen for me in this second half of my thirties. But I know a LOT of people my age and older that are still living with fear, self-criticism, anxiety, and depression. Some manifest it by being "perfect" while others use alcohol or tobacco.

Something I've been coming in tune with is that we actually do know more than we think. I see that in both of you and myself, as well as so many other people who have shared with us. Because we are obsessive observers (the affliction of artists), we have been watching people... really watching people since we were wee ones... We have learned quite a bit, but likely ignored the lessons during the years where other activities take our minds away from our inner wisdom are the years that we (or at least I) have struggled. That's where the line "Can the child within my heart rise above" rings true to me.

I'm trying to stay in tune now... but that doesn't mean I won't F* up every now and again... aaahhh, the human condition...

suz said...

I love this song. So beautiful!

I was listening to it on the radio recently and one of the kids in my car actually had the NERVE to tell me that Stevie Nicks ripped this from the Dixie Chicks. as if....
You know I set them straight!